“A Few Haiku (42)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#247)

barren apple trees
culled from orchards without thought
so many regrets

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(#248)

in the desert
all pretense is stripped away
only truth survives

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(#249)

wooden ladle and tin cup
and a bone-dry well
life’s futility

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(#250)

take the empty cup
drink my fill of nothingness
let me live in peace

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(#251)

dragging the river
somewhere in the murky depths
I may find myself

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(#252)

leave the stones unturned
let the clouds drift where they may
live in harmony

“A Few Haiku (41)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#241)

semi-auto god
bestows eucharist of lead
solemn school bells toll

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(#242)

school halls echo with
screams of dying children and
NRA’s black sins

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(#243)

white men with black souls
and guns—God, so many guns–
MAGA paradise

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(#244)

bend them ’til they break
then suck the life out of them
my father’s parenting

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(#245)

my life etched in runes
incomprehensible script
I can’t decipher

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(#246)

creosote bushes
and alkali hardpan
I have no more tears

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(Author’s note: some of these pieces were inspired by the recent deadly spate of gun violence in the U.S., including an elementary school massacre in Uvalde, Texas, where nineteen children and two teachers were gunned down by a heavily armed young man who recently purchased AR-15 rifles on his 18th birthday and who had posted on social media his desire to do this act. Reports have now surfaced that police officers responding to the incident chose to wait outside the door because they “didn’t want to get shot.” Welcome to America, where there are more guns than people and more mass-shootings than days in the year…)

“A Few Haiku (40)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#235)

so much damage done
by such delicate fingers
and a blackened heart

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(#236)

how soothing the words
whispered to a shattered heart
by her serpent’s tongue

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(#237)

days of green silence
heart fern-bound in oak shadows
dreaming with the trees

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(#238)

I have not yet reached
terminal velocity
my life in free-fall

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(#239)

carved into the bark
of my heart, her initials
overgrown with grief

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(#240)

bright sun hurts my eyes
just as hope singes my soul
best to stay inside

“A Few Haiku (39)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#229)

snap-beans in a wooden bowl
and tears on her cheeks
my mother’s sorrow

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(#230)

pre-dawn mourning
her eyes on the horizon
searching for the light

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(#231)

in konara copse
my soul seeks solace
in the still shadows

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(#232)

my reflection gone
even the stream forsakes me
as I drift away

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(#233)

these numb fingers
I can’t feel the difference
between hope and despair

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(#234)–(for Eivor and Pearl)

beneath verdant trees
joy and peace walk side by side
on the dappled path

“A Few Haiku (38)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#223)

sorrow begets joy
from the ashes of my soul
a columbine

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(#224)

what can harsh words rend
that kind words cannot assuage
the healing rain

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(#225)

under starless skies
my heart sings a silent dirge
night wind in the trees

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(#226)

my regrets are mine
my shame wears my haggard face
my soul weeps alone

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(#227)

vagaries of life
my heart’s buoyancy in doubt
on my soulless sea

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(#228)

what my heart demands
my mind cannot comprehend
and my soul rejects

“A Few Haiku (37)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#217)

clarity sundered
in the swelter and the din
of scorched memories

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(#218)

fitting denouement
thoughtless birds and bitter breeze
signify the end

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(#219)

I behold the stars
through the blurred prisms of tears
hope is beyond reach

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(#220)

holes in the pockets
of my soul; I lost myself
somewhere along the way

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(#221)

aloof stars shine on
while constellations of lives
perish on the earth

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(#222)

take my hand, my friend
do not cry, do not despair
you are not alone

“A Few Haiku (36)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#211)

the empty cistern
my poetry garden dies
in this wordless drought

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(#212)

that cur depression
skulks on the periphery
hyper-vigilant

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(#213)

thoughts bereft of words
prisoners inside my head
silent penitence

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(#214)

desiccated soul
slakes its thirst from murky meres
roams my sunless mind

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(#215)

mental exhaustion
I can no longer pretend
everything is fine

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(#216)

parts of me have died
that no one will ever know
nor will ever mourn

“A Few Haiku (35)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#205)

in the forest
nothing matters but the sound
of my quiet mind

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(#206)

my heart finds its home
where the sparrows congregate
the vernal canopy

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(#207)

time and wind and rain
soften edges of harsh stones
my sorrows assuaged

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(#208)

once I saw the sea
there was no more wandering
my home had found me

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(#209)

glowing stardew laves
dozing midnight columbines
celestial dreams

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(#210)

these numb fingers
have lost their feel for life
my grip weakens

“A Few Haiku (34)”

(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

(#199)

domestic abuse
my seven-year-old self
learns to hate

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(#200)

sunflower song
a dirge for those
who shall never bloom

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(#201)

tank tracks in mud
scrawl across sunflower fields
calligraphy of war

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(#202)

spent brass shell casings
golden glitter in the streets
currency of death

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(#203)

we watch and wait
while children cry and die
thoughts and prayers are not enough

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(#204)

judgment day
we have no excuse for
what we have done

“The Bonfire”

“The Bonfire”
(c) 2022 by Michael L. Utley

in our exuberance to burn the words
Bradbury sagely nods and Orwell sighs
as shock-troopers corral the motley herds
and churlish masses watch with sullen eyes

bonfires glow red in every city square
eight thousand million names recited there
black smoke and fetid fumes assault the air
as filthy faces flicker in the glare

the Keepers of the Words arrive anon
in every town and burg in all the lands
and silence drops like cluster bombs upon
the billions gathered, and within their hands

the Keepers of the Words display The Tome
wherein all words of man have found their home
brought forth from dark cob-webby catacomb
a vade mecum in the darkling gloam

and with the fall of night the Keeper speaks
to all assembled round the burning pyre
“The time has come for every man who seeks
to purge his mind and cleanse his soul in fire…

“To speak one’s mind is tantamount to sin;
tomes with the thoughts of others writ within
shall lead you to the darkness and the din
of hellfire and the madness found therein…

“And so, to save your soul and cleanse your heart
Dear Leader, in his love and lenity,
has offered you a choice: from words depart
and rollick in silent indemnity,

“or immolate your filthy craven mind
and burn to ashes your pathetic rind–
obedience is bliss; the fire unkind
live silently, or fry in flames refined.”

smoke from the bonfire eddies in the night
as nervous glances dart among the crowd
and hands grip slips of paper, knuckles tight
where words are scrawled to soon be read aloud

the Keeper of the Words begins the rite
and summons forth the first name of the night
and from the crowd a man steps toward the light
his gait unsure, his face an ashen white

“Your word, comrade,” the Keeper’s voice demands
“or else the fire…it’s up to you, good sir…”
and from the paper held in shaking hands
he reads a single solitary word

“Freedom…”

then with a cry the guards drag him away
and Keeper of the Words calls out to say
“The word ‘freedom’ is stricken forth this day
from mankind’s lexicon…small price to pay…

“…for one’s life, is it not?” and with a grin
announces the next name, and from the pack
a ragged woman, elderly and thin
approaches bravely, never looking back

“Your word, comrade…” the Keeper starts to say
“You’ll have no word of mine, not on this day
or any day!” the woman says, a fey
expression of defiance aimed his way

and crumpling her paper in her ire
she drops it on the ground and cries aloud
then launches her old body toward the fire
and burns as horror overwhelms the crowd

“Her word was ‘love,’” the Keeper says, amused,
“and though this woman steadfastly refused
to sacrifice this word, someone will choose
to strike it from existence,” and bemused

he calls another name, and then the next
and on it went throughout the endless night
as words like hope and peace fell from the text
of Keeper’s Tome, and love faded from sight

and in the end, at breaking of the day
we all depart and make our solemn way
into a silent world of empty grey
with nothing left for anyone to say

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(This poem is inspired by the recent rash of censorship being pushed by the republican party here in America, where books are being banned and even burned as right-wing radicals promote fear, lies and hatred aimed at people of color and marginalized groups. Also, in many places across the globe, freedom of speech is under siege as authoritarian regimes crack down on those who speak truth and expose their evil deeds. As writers, we cannot allow this to happen. We have voices; we must use them to ensure all people are free to speak their minds.)